I am a painter. I have spent years developing my technique. I have been inspired by so many artists lately, doing the daily painting thing, and admiring what they can do with paint. I have tried to emulate that ease and flow of the paint in a single session. I failed. So much so that I kind of lost my mojo so to speak. There are other factors too, like being a type 1 diabetic and having bad days with my blood sugars, or being sick from the flu- those are bad painting days for sure. Little sleep, and emotional stress is also a deal breaker on the canvas for me. All of these things have been present the last couple of months and it has been a real struggle for me to get back to ME.
What do I know? DO I have IT still? Did I ever have it?
Yesterday I was in the studio and I just let it go. I let go of what I thought I should do and just painted what I know how to do. I felt at home. It may not be my best work, but at least I felt back to me. Art to me is not a competition, but it can be so influential it is hard to stop wanting to do it all and just do what is natural to me. So, here is that:
